~* 26th June 2008 *~

Today I feel so totally differently from last few days. Maybe love feeling started to lefted me. Last night,i sat alone at corner of my own bedroom drinking beer. Didn't realise i drank alot. Already been quite long time didn't drink alot of beer since first break up with my first ex-girlfriends. But i'm still awake but just feel abit dizzy. Is this no worth for doing that cause just both of them? Maybe right... I'm just pour all my feeeling to them. Just can't imagine the finally result was going to ended up like this ending. If want love me,i'll give my love for 100% for sure. *sob sob* maybe this is my fate be arrange by God. Hahaha...

Keep wondering why i'm always falls deep into love? Maybe i'm too emotional guy. Why i should keep the love that doesn't exist to me anymore? Power of love really i can't resist it. I was too loyal to my girlfriend. That's why i'm always get dumped by girlfriends. Doesn't that what girl wants? Really can't understand what the girls playing in their mind sometimes. Just take it as a lesson and life experience as well. No pain , no gain.... LOL